Yesterday I had a conversation with some one who has been reading my blog for some time. He says that I have 'mellowed out', that I am not as radical as I used to be.
Am I just getting old?
After all, my first ever post was a rant against structure and organised politics in favour of inchoate rage.
I don't think my politics has really changed: essentially, I am still a libertarian communist, though I am not mad about labels. But what has changed is the way I apply my politics.
Firstly, I am a lot more strategic: I have decided that small victories are better than glorious defeats. Victory builds confidence and political skill. Glorious defeat produces narcissistic martyrdom cults.
One definite change is that, unlike my younger self, I now believe very strongly in accountable structures. As Jo Freeman famously points out, if you don't make political structures explicit, implicit ones form, and these are very difficult to challenge. So while meetings might be 'boring', as I argued in Gnostic Liberation Theology, we are unlikely to change the world without them.
I don't discount the importance of magick in politics, but I have realised that there is a lot of hard work that needs to be done too.
Also, I am learning to Open Source my political engagement, and overcome the sectarianism that is so often a feature of the Left. I think libertarian communists ideas are good, but there are plenty of people who don't - many of them passionate, very knowledgeable and committed to social change. I am a democrat, after all, and most people disagree with me.
Maybe I am wrong, and they are right.
But I think we are both right. This might be screamingly obvious to the rest of you, but I have only just noticed that progressive politics is a continuum, rather than an absolute. Anything that pulls the centre towards the Left should be encouraged, so that the hegemony becomes more progressive. An Obama victory is good, because it opens a lot of progressive political space in the US, but its not the end. Anarchist riots on the streets of Athens are good too, though they are unlikely to change anything permanently unless they are able to build coalitions with people less radical than themselves and push a political platform that a majority would find acceptable.
Another change is that I find myself (in my job for a union) actively working with politicians. Some politicians are the absolute scum of the earth, many are mediocrities, but there are a few who are genuine, committed people trying to make things better for their constituents. They are in all parties, and it seems sensible to work with them, especially where there is an ideological or strategic overlap.
A few years ago, I thought that anything that didn't happen on the street or in the workplace was irrelevant, and that voting was a waste of time. I still feel that getting sucked into the electoral circus, as the three big parties triangulate around the same positions, is a distraction from real politics, but I now think that voting is important.
Voting changes the context that other political struggle happens in.
It's not a substitute for hard political work, but it can make a difference, particularly if you actively engage with politicians and remind them that they have a mandate to push progressive policies.
I particularly think European elections are important. I think that a Social Europe is a great Enlightenment project worth fighting for, something that, if achieved, will set a powerful benchmark for the whole world.
It's not glamorous stuff, and there's a lot of boring back room horsetrading that needs to be done, coalitions to be built between trade unions and various political groups. It is important, though, and can improve the lives of millions of people.
Unfortunately not many people vote in EU elections, because they seem so distant, which means that wreckers like UKIP, the BNP (and to be frank, the Tories) gain disproportionate power.
All the above has made me a lot less interested in ideology. I certainly don't think it's that useful for basing a political platform on: if politics is the art of the possible, it needs to be kept practical. This has left me with absolutely no patience for ultra-Leftism, for Judean People's Front stuff, for the squabbling Left sects fighting over Lenin's legacy, for groups too 'pure' to move beyond the margins who call every compromise a sell out.
So what do you think? Have I grown old and soft, and sold out? Has the delicate aroma of petrol bombs finally faded and been replaced with the stale air of boardrooms?